What Kind of Christian Am I?
Have you ever paused to ask yourself, “Why do I believe in God?”
Is it because I grew up in a Christian home?
Is it because I’m afraid of going to hell?
Or is it because I want to look like a “good person” in front of others?
These are honest questions — the kind that make us stop and think about what our faith is really built on. For a long time, I didn’t ask myself those questions. I just went along with what I was taught, attended church, sang the songs, and played my part. But deep down, I had to face the truth: Do I really know God, or do I just know about Him?
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The Many Reasons We Believe
Some of us believe in God because it’s all we’ve ever known.
Some believe because we don’t want to end up in hell.
Some believe because it feels good to belong to a faith community.
And some believe because we’ve truly experienced His love.
None of these reasons are entirely wrong, but only one of them leads to a real relationship with God — and that’s when our faith comes from knowing Him personally.
There was a time when I realized my faith was mostly routine. I prayed because I had to, not because I wanted to. I worshiped because it was Sunday, not because my heart longed for His presence. That realization was humbling — and it made me hungry for something deeper.
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When Faith Becomes Real
My faith started to change when I began to experience God, not just hear about Him.
It wasn’t during a loud service or a big miracle — it was in quiet moments, when I was honest about my struggles and weaknesses. I found that God wasn’t waiting for me to impress Him; He wanted me to know Him.
It was then that faith became more than a label — it became life.
I began to see that Christianity isn’t about rules or reputation; it’s about relationship.
It’s about knowing that even when I fail, God’s grace is still enough to lift me up again.
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Am I Truly Born Again?
This is a question every believer should ask — not out of fear, but out of desire to grow.
Jesus said, “Unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.” (John 3:3)
Being born again isn’t about being perfect or religious. It’s about transformation — a change that starts in the heart and shows in how we live.
I had to ask myself:
• Has my heart really changed?
• Do I still love the things I used to, or do I crave more of God’s presence?
• Is my faith built on fear, or on love?
The truth is, being born again is not about what we do for God, but what He does in us.
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How Does God Truly See Me?
Sometimes I wonder how God sees me. Does He see my flaws? My inconsistency?
Yes — but He also sees something more: a child He loves deeply.
God doesn’t measure us by how often we get it right, but by how open our hearts are to Him.
He sees our struggles, our questions, and our journey — and still calls us His own.
“Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” (1 Samuel 16:7)
When I remember that, I stop trying to earn His love — and start living from it.
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A Prayer from My Heart
Lord, help me to know You for who You truly are.
Let my faith be built on love, not fear.
Teach me to walk with You, not just talk about You.
And when I fall short, remind me that Your grace is still enough.
Amen.
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Final Thoughts
So, what kind of Christian am I?
I’m one still learning, still growing, still being shaped by God’s love.
I’m not perfect — but I’m real.
And that’s where faith begins.
Maybe it’s time we all stop and ask ourselves the same question:
“Why do I believe in God?”
Because when we know the answer, we’ll begin to see who we truly are — and how deeply God already loves us.
Faith or Fear: The Real Reason I Believe
